These past few days I’ve been relaxing after work, watching ‘Friends’, reading harry potter and playing the game as these things always remind me of simpler, happy times and cheer me up. I’ve been getting back into my own happy space, Things have been sorted out with my friend so I’m back to normal, being content. I don’t need to rely on hanging out with my friends as I’m fine being in the house or out and about on my own seeing as it’s been over 2 years that I’ve lived alone. I have plenty of activities to entertain myself without being with friends such as art stuff, listening to music and singing along, watching my tv shows online, reading, going outside and of course going to work. If in doubt with what to do when feeling sad…watch ‘Friends’. Best thing ever.
So I’m sitting here singing along to music and going online seeing everyone achieving career goals and moving forward with life and it just makes me want to jump onto whatever fun train they’re on and get on with life too. I’ve decided to forget about things that weren’t good for me and make room for things that are important. It’s always best to start the New Year with a positive outlook.
- So my plan of action is first to clean my house. (you need a nice area to think) Also buy gas as it is cold, I’m wearing a hat and scarf in my bedroom and I can see my breath.
- Next prepare for that interview that I’m freaking out over. (the usual) I am half prepared though so it should be fine.
- Third go off to Glasgow this weekend to meet my friend for a wee girly night.
- Finish my Futurama drawing finally so it can go up on my bedroom wall. Woop colour.
- After that start designing again. Maybe something intricate and delicate inspired from the elvish style in lord of the rings.
- Relearn how to use Rhino 4.0 C.A.D.
- Relearn all my notes from college hahaha yeah ok maybe later
- Draw paint ups of designs.
- Make a portfolio
That should be it until I move up to Glasgow then I can make jewellery again at college.
In my social life meet up with my friends more, go back to that cool comedy show and actually see the whole show this time. (but this time sit closer to the back so they don’t talk to us) Better make it a Friday so the trains are running until 12. Travel sometime. Go see more bands live. Definitely buy more music, I’ve been listening to the same stuff for years. Maybe buy a ukulele even though I can’t play guitar…yet. Stop worrying.
That’s my sister’s cat, he always cheers me up.
I always wish my life could be like a sitcom where you have a few friends who are girls and guys and we hang out almost every day. That would be awesome. I realise that I just made my life sound empty and meaningless and me sound co-dependent but I also have art things to do and books to read so it’s all good. If life were like a sitcom I could meet up with the girls for lunch like in ‘sex and the city’ or I could meet everyone down at the bar after work like in ‘How I met your mother’. I’d have a jewellery job I would be so happy in and could afford to travel to other countries.
When I was a teenager I could not wait to live on my own and have my own space but now I miss having the company of someone that lives with me. My family are spread out over the UK and Germany. The closest family member I have is my sister who is in Glasgow. My friends have their own lives and some even have another little life to take care of. Which is amazing, they have so many good things going for them which makes me happy for them.
I just wonder whatever happened to socialising and why have we all become addicted to checking our Facebook or Twitter, etc. constantly, ‘just incase we missed something’. I always end up on Faceland. It’s a never ending world of social media taking over our lives and basically because of this it seems to be the only way to get hold of people and to actually get a conversation from them as they are glued to their damn phones. So in conclusion get off the phone when you’re hanging out with me. Just a guess but I’d probably do the same thing sometimes if I had a phone with internet. Hypocrite time. The first time I saw the Prisoner of Azkaban and Hagrid said ‘a hippogriff’ I thought he was saying a hypocrite.
When you’re younger you get home from school, do your homework (avoid it until the last minute), get dinner and go out to see your friends. Whilst you’re in college you find you hardly have time to leave the house because of the overwhelming amount of homework, even during holidays. So you barely see anyone and start to become detached to the outside world and end up using social network sites as the only contact with your friends. As you grow up, leave home and finish college you quickly realise that whilst you may now have all the time in the world for your friends they now have lives of their own so won’t always have time for you at the drop of a hat.
So what do you do? Do you sit at home wallowing or realise that you will need to fill that spare time with something that makes you happy. Sometimes you can’t rely on the company of others to keep you occupied and have to find other ways.
As a live aloner I decided that listening to music and doing art projects seem to be the only thing that keeps me sane. I started making jewellery using beads instead of precious metals and gemstones as my funds are quite limited due to a job that is getting me nowhere. So I’ve begun searching for a new job so I can finally get on with life. If these beaded jewellery pieces sell I can start saving up money towards making more jewellery out of metals. Other projects I’ve taken up are drawing using mixed media, re-learning German and writing blogs that are half worth reading. I know my writing is nothing compared to the serious writers. But I’m not a writer, I’m a jeweller so I don’t need my blogs to be ultra serious.
If you’re more academic than arty then you could try re-learning science, maths and languages. Travelling would apply to anybody but I guess funding is needed for that. Or you could try the career everyone thinks they can do, photography. Yeah well when I needed to take professional photos of my jewellery I thought I can’t afford to pay someone so I will just do it myself. Then I found taking a decent photograph of my jewellery was incredibly hard as some of the gemstones were only 2mm and the camera I was using couldn’t pick up the quality of the colour and facets. Then there’s lighting to worry about. Photography is nowhere near as easy as it sounds.
There are also other options like music if you’re talented in that area. If you are not confident enough for singing or find your hands are too small to reach all the chords you don’t need to be a part of the band to make a contribution to music. There is a huge market for writing song lyrics as they are just as important as the music that goes with it.
Just keep doing the things that make you happy and figure out ways to get things moving forward on your own so that you’ll find you won’t need to rely on others as much.